perubahan itu tidak mudah

Jadi, ibu ini selama puluhan tahun bekerja di kantor. Kini ia tak lagi bekerja di kantor, dan merasa semangat ingin melakukan sesuatu. Kali ini, pilihannya jatuh ke berdagang, jualan. Produk yang dipilih, makanan.
Pada hari itu, tidak, bahkan satu hari sebelum itu, sudah tampak bahwa dirinya belum siap untuk melakukan jual menjual ini. Semua terlihat dari polah dan bicaranya. Sungguh jelas, bahwa hati dan mentalnya belum (atau tidak) siap untuk perubahan semacam ini.

Ini adalah perubahan besar. Dari yang duduk enak di kantor, dimana yang kerja berat adalah si otak, menjadi kerja keras dengan tenaga dan daya upaya pribadi, di tempat yang selalu berubah suasana, lokasi dan tetamunya.

Dan benar saja, bahwa memang itulah yang dirasakan. Bukan berarti menyerah, hanya tidak ingin turun tangan dengan tenaga seperti itu. Cukup otak saja yang bekerja, mungkin demikian.

Yah, memang itu sudah sangat terbaca. Mendengar kisah orang lain dan merasakan sendiri itu hal adalah dua kutub magnet yang berlawanan. Bagaimana pun, sifat orang berbeda-beda, tipe bekerja juga berbeda-beda. This is just not her type. Marry another job. Hopefully she will find the perfect type of job to marry after the years of work at the office.

Berubah itu bukan hal yg mudah. Untuk berubah adalah perjuangan -Herwindra Aiko Senosoenoto

*sigh*

Gila. Entah kenapa, sudah 3 minggu ini, kepala saya dipasungi sesuatu yang menghentikan aliran inspirasi tulisan untuk dijadikan karya. *sigh* tapi bisa nulis blog ini? Ah, kacau.

Entah kenapa, sudah 3 minggu ini, kepala ini sebenarnya banyak suara dan pemikiran, tapi seperti sulit sekali untuk mengeluarkannya. Come on...

3 nights and 1 pillow

as you might know, I am now under chiropractic treatment. Dr. Mark saw a subluxation on my spines and my neck. He suggested me to adjust myself to use the pillow again. :D As recommended, I use the foam pillow, you know, the one that follow your shape contour? Yeah, that boxy foamy pillow.

After the first treatment (well, the term should be adjustment) I tried to sleep with my pillow on. Can't do that. Nope. It only lasted for 5 mins (hahaha), then I had a nice sleep with no pillow like I always do. As for the next day, I kept trying to sleep with a pillow. Nope. I believe my subconcious mind disagree to use the pillow, and kicked it out while I asleep.

It happens for 3 nights, I think. I tried to use the pillow but it always gone in the morning. Well I think it was after the third adjustment that I finally could sleep with a pillow without kicking it out. Surprisingly, I feel fine! There was a time when I felt uncomfortable with a pillow on my neck, but I managed to survive the night!

The pillow is still there in the morning, I feel no pain on my shoulder and neck like I used to if I use a pillow. And most importantly I feel fresh every morning. But that cost me a mismatch on my bed arrangement. Hahaha

my lumbar experience

Jadi, seorang kawan merekomendasikan untuk pergi ke klinik Chiropractic. You might have heard it, but just dont know what is all about. Same here. The only knowledge I know about chiropractic is that it has something to do with your spines. What I don't know, what is it about the spines?

So I went to this clinic on Pacific Place, meeting Dr. Mark Robson for the very first time. Questions were asked, mostly about places I feel most pain, and my health related problem.Then the doctor explained, that in our lives, we move all over the places every seconds, and the tiniest movement will affect your spines. ( I heard something like this from my dentist, but he explained the movement in our tooth and jaw, so I kinda get the picture here).

And all the movement sometimes (most of the time) cause subluxation. Subluxation is when your spines stuck or jammed which blocking the communication flow from our neural headquarter to every parts in our body. So, it depends on the position of the subluxation, to cause you different kind of health problem, and I mean anything. From the most commonly to relate to chiropractic, back pain, to headache, digestion problem, cramps, menstrual cramps, allergies, anything. I think you need to look at the diagram to find out all. Hahaha

For my case, there is a subluxation on my neck, which is leading to early degeneration! huaaaaa *tears in my eyes* And the shape of it, slightly backwards than what it should be.

Do you see the red line? That marks the normal position. This what cause me my headaches, my back pain and my hmmph depression. Haahaha.

Years ago, the subluxation in my neck caused me feeling some pain every time I woke up, and me, cleverly remove the pillow and found that it was the source of my pain. Which I find out now, that sleeping with no pillow on just make the degeneration worse than it should be. Because our neck has no support while sleeping.

Well, I signed on the program, so we will see how things work with me and the chiropractic treatment.
He said I am gonna be unbalanced for a while..hahaha *knife on my hand*